..

This is such a strange way...

to save the world

I Really Can't Stay, but Baby it's Cold Outside...

It finally feels like December

but I'm not sure how I like it

^I wanna be there^

Who am I that Heaven even knows my name?

Out with the negative

in with some positive

^I've always loved this picture^

Tonight at church- I realized something. No matter how hard we try, not one of us is going to have a perfect life. That sounds pretty obvious..we've been taught since we were three that no one is perfect, life isn't perfect. No one can fully get through life on their own. At some point you're going to have to surrender to something, you just have to make sure you're surrendering to the right thing.

Wish I'd Never Grown Up, It Could Still Be Simple.

It was not your fault but mine; it was your heart on the line

I really messed it up this time; didn't I dear?

I'm not even in the mood to tell people how my day went.

People are stupid, really stupid. I hate how rude some people (cough, girls) can be. Like seriously, you have NO idea what people go through behind closed doors. Where do you have the room to talk about imperfections? Nobody's perfect...and you're FAR from it too.

I hate when you tell me I'm immature...you're in high school, what do you know about mature?

I said that I was done with talking about what happened- I'm not.

We can sit here and blame what happened on each other allllll day long....but it's honestly not my problem anymore. I don't say that in a "I have no fault" way- because I know I messed up somewhere. I must have. But let's be serious for a second- if I DIDN'T care about, if I HATED you..I wouldn't speak to you when you spoke to me. I wouldn't respond to you. You can't honestly say you know me well enough. Because quite frankly, you really don't. But you should know me enough to realize I'm going to be honest with you- or I won't say anything to you. I just don't understand what I'm suppose to do if you're not going to take anything I do or say to heart. Just stop making it seem like it's all my fault.

And while I'm on a huge rant-

Stop complaining about life. You woke up this morning, you should be thankful. So what if your boyfriend stopped caring about you? So what if you're gossiped about? There's starving kids in China who would love to have your place. Calm the heck down.

I Brush My Teeth in the Shower.

It's FRIDAY.

and I'm not paying attention to this English Lesson

There's no use in me trying to catch up on notes on "southern gothic literature". Jimmy just spilled water all over himself and the floor. It literally looks like he peed his pants. ('of course I peed my pants- it's the COOLEST') And I volunteered to clean up his accident. So now, my attention span is gone. This is why I have a 78 in here, dad. My eye is killing me. I had to put eye drops in my eye- which is the scariest thing ever. When I see the droplet of eye drop about to hit my eye- I freaaaaaak out.

I've been getting a lot of crap from people today. I'm not dating anyone. I don't plan to date anyone. I only have friends. And that isn't a big deal.

Six things I wish I'd Never Done. (oh boy)

1. Put these eye drops in my eye.

2. Argued back at certain people. I should have let it go.

3. Let people stay mad at me.

4. Kept how I really felt a secret.

5. Lead you on.

6. ............God knows this one.

I Hope You Like Dancing in the Rain.

I'm watching The Santa Clause!

holller.

I don't think I could even describe how today was. But, I'm not going to bore you with what I exactly because you probably don't care. My day consisted of: school, date to food lion with emily benko!, basketball game, mcdonalds with case and colleen, and riding with THE kirsten boyd! (holller!)

I don't understand how people can say they 'care' about someone. Especially girls. We get so mad and paranoid over our guys being with other girls. There's nothing wrong with jealousy, as long as it's healthy. But if you aren't 'officially' with someone and you say you 'care' about them- let them do what they want. Who are you to stand in the way of what they really want? And besides- in the end everything's going to work out like they were meant to in the end. No use to fight for it.

But I guess its really not that simple.

Seven Things That Cross my Mind a lot.

1. food

2. "oh shift. I didn't do my homework"

3. I can't stand this school.

4. robot unicorn attack.

5. freeze pops.

6. It's SO cold.

7. I'm Hungry.

Blogging During School..say whaa?!

I really should be paying attention- but, it's too late for all of that.

I've made a decision. I'm NEVER dating. In high school, at least. Then again, that's not surprising. I'm not the kind of girl who has a boyfriend all of the time. It's rare I actually show feelings- for anyone. But I've learned a lot since 2009. I'm a better friend. I'll be there for you..but I'm not about to be tied down. It's complicated. But high school is suppose to be fun. And trying to keep someone happy isn't fun.

To whom it may concern:

I miss you. I miss talking to you. I miss how you made me laugh. I miss giant bear hugs. I REALLY miss you in general.